When i started to trust you ,

Things started to turn upside down

I heard things that are not supposed to be

You did things that are not you

You sick , i cared

But in you , i'm just that girl who keep on pressurizing you

But once other care , it seems like you'll appreciate them more

2 years , after 2 years

You're just doing all these to me

hah !

It makes my laugh

I seriously had enough of all these things

To be honest , i didn't want to let go because ,

i know ,you aren't that heartless, aren't that unfaithful

But , after so much , i'm wrong, really reaaly wrong

The fact is infront of me now ,

what more can i say ?

You've changed , really changed

I don't know what's th reason behind all these

but hopefully not because of her.

But one thing i know is ,

you'll still enjoying yourself ,

regardless of what had happened.

Everything seems so one sided ,

and now ,

i truely wanted to give up

and i say , i really do

Perhaps , you'll be happier this way

What i want to say to you ,

are all said to you

you're just fair too selfish , that nobody would

Like i say , if to you , this rel is so easy for you to let go ,

then you're not worth my love , anymore

I suppose you can look for someone else , better .

All along, i'm just the naive one , the stupid one

Once unused , being thrown away.

Maybe , the way i show love and care ,

you just couldn't accept it.

And i think i dont have to waste anymore time on you

It's th end now .

Really an end now

I should start a new life from today onwards

Everything is a disappointment

Perhaps , i'm just putting in too high hopes on you already.

是缘分把我们凑合在一起的

可是一旦我们不会珍惜

一切也是白费的

真的不了解, 为什么事情会变得那么可怕

你的感情真的有那么容易得变吗?

DILEMMA...

i'm sorry

i'm really in dilemma now

i didn't know how to handle

everthing happens in a split seconds

i've regretted once ,

i don't wish to regret anymore

but , i've got hurt once and i'm just afraid same thing would happen again.

how ?

sigghh

had class photoshooting today

It was rather cool

Yeah , i recieved a rose today

lols

oh well , i'm just so tire.

feel like sleeping

yawns

You did things for me behind my back

when i realised , i smiled

but infront of me ,

you used a knife to stab into my heart

and left

2 sided part of you

which is the real one ?

do you know ,

for know , whatever you did , i trusted you

because i told myself you aren't things type of person

but after so much of things i heard , i realise i'm abit wrong

but i still do trust my instinct.

like you asked me to

but still , i'm in dilemma ):

Went to get my pay yesterday

But, after yesterday , my pay was gone .

LOLS.

ate at Clarke Quay

Yeah , i saw him yesterday =.=''

but just kind of surprised luh

lol

thats all

I trust you for one last time

i believe in you for one last time

i dont wish to hear anymore things about you

please, dont disappoint me (:

WHAT ON EARTH ARE WE BOTH THINKING ?

WHY DO WE NEED TO HURT EACH OTHER

ARE WE REALLY HAPPIER THIS WAY

WE'RE FAR TOO CHILDISH

ONE DAY , I HOPE WE'LL WAKE UP

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME !!

Thanks many many people like ,

Zoe er zu er ( my sweetie little one )

Xiang Ying , Melisa , Min yi jie ,Siow Ting jie , Liping jie( my lovely ones )

gonna meet up soon alright.

perhaps tommorrow ?

Choiyan

Sisters (:

Junella , Clarrisa , Lynn , Waiwai , Johnathan , Yaozhong , keeteck , chengwee

Secondary 4 B

Teachers

Dancers

And many other more friends for the messages and more

thanks sososo much lovely :DDDDDDDD

Yesterday night , received lots of messages.

they filled my heart with love

Morning, received messages too (:

And JIALI gave me cholcolates , YUMYUM !

Present from
Junella , Clarrisa , Lynn , Waiwai , Johnathan , Yaozhong , keeteck , chengwee

Cakes and surprises from them too

they just want to make me happy (:

ahahha . thanks people

i truely enjoy my birthday people.

Oh yuh, present from my lovely ones too

really thanks so much , really

You guys just brighten up my day

I still have you !

LOVES !!

And also thanks to him

takecare :D

For the past 2 years plus ,

The very first time when we wasn't together yet , you gave me this bouquet of red roses. You filled my entire heart with love and trust , with warmth and assure-ness.

During Valentine's Day , we gave each other the same present un-noticely.

Then , for the first few months , we went out together as a group. The first date , we went to have fish&co. Had fun all along and along. We catch a movie , eat , play and almost everything together. Do you still remember ?

Then , for the 2nd year Valentine's Day , we dined at Cafe-cartel and you bought me a piggy bank and a bouquet of roses.

Then , on the 1St year anniversary , we went out to Bugis and then Ikea to look for your family and you got me this chocolate.

Also , you came to look for me when i was at Cineleisure eating with xy after your work and you gave me this stalk of rose. Wasn't it so sweet ?

Everything went smoothly until march , 2007, we broke up because of some resons , but we never failed to be together again. Things started to get beautiful and nice ,smoothly , don't they ? We overcome all obstacles together. We eat , play , study , slack , party and more more and more together. Have you forgotten ?

Until this year , march 11 , i thought things will start to get better after a few quarrelments , but we ended up like this now. What had happened ? I don't know either. Yes , we may be tire, but didn't we tried our best to re-solve everything ? From each of these , we learn from mistakes . When we fall , we stood up and continue walking. But now , it seems so hard. After soso much we've gone through , is it going to stop here , at this point of time ? You told me you just need some time, but the way you treated me now , it's like i don't know. I never want to give up on this reltionship. It may seems so draggy and what so ever , to me , it's just something for me to learn from. You're seriously a nice guy who i never want to lose. I'm seriously tire of everything now. What am i going to do next ? it's not gonna end here , right ?

SIGH !

PS: I wouldn't neglect my studies though.

So people, don't worry , i know what i'm doing

If only i have him ,things will be more beautiful :D

we work hard together

and overcome every obstacles togther ,

tell me ,

we're gonna do this together again

ANDDDDDDD.............

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO

YINGYING , ME AND WEIHENG !

WE ALWAYS CALLED OURSELVES THE

26 , 27 , 28 OF MARCH BABIES !

LOLS

What gonna happen next ?

I wanted to trust you

i wanted to have the faith in you

i wanted to believe you

i wanted to trust my own instinct

But ! ,now , i don't even dare to

i'm so afraid that i may be very disappointed

so what actually am i gonna do ?

sighh

i believe that my birthday is gone , really gone

no calls , no messages

i know your answer

I'm tire ........

Schooled as usual

was rather tire today which i don't know why

had rehearsal today

had a misunderstanding with malay dancers but hope we're alright now

afterall , we're still sharing one rooftop :)

home sweet home :D

2 more days to my birthday ,

and guess what , i'm going science center

GrRR

i suppose it doesn't matters now course i'm gonna have a lonely birthday this year

nomore surprises and others , i guess

sigh

that's my life,

i'm to blame

And to the someone who reads my blog

if you're happy to see us break off ,

then it's up to you

course you're just that someone who like to flirt him , don't you ?

so , if you come and ask me who is it ,

i'm gonna tell you is you

i'm straight forward , SO ?

nothing for you to critcise when you don't even look pretty

oh please

just shut your mouth and everything will goes smoothly

i have faith in this rel

but some things just makes me wonder why

you said you don't know ,

neither do i

life still have to go on

i'm gonna start studying and also have lots of fun

i'm not gonna care or be bothered by it anymore

things will turn out better this why i suppose ?

hahaa !

Life is so unpredictable

Life for both of us is really really so difficult

all the ups and down

just makes us so tire

i hope we aren't gonna give up like this ba

how long will be it ?

i can't get the reason why you did all these

you may have your reasons ,

i don't know

but well ,

just wait till the day come ba

but hope it isn't too long

Everything is just so complicated , so confusing

i didn't know exactly you wanted

everything is all about your words, your doings and more

what about mine ?

seriously , i'm so extremely tire already

i had enough of everything

when i thought of giving up ,

you came to tell me these and that

what's wrong with you ?

really

when i wanted to move on

you hold me back

someday i would really hope ,

you'll hold my hands once again

like you once did ,

an never let me go

take care boy (:

I thought things started to get better at first

But , you made it otherwise again

if you are happier this way ,

then that's good for you

no need to bother it anymore

i predict my own future now

you like it this way ,

then it shall be

I'm tire of the on and off feelings

i suppose i've sorted out my feelings ?

ahahahah

just miss the chance i guesss

there isn't a need for me to message you nor anything

i find it useless and stupid

Oh please , what exactly you're doing ?

Alright , was away for Malaysia.

Seriously, it was bored at first , but after that , it was still alright

ahaha

The first thing i did when i reach th resort was SLEEP !

hahha.

course i haven't been sleeping since thursday night

shall not mention what i did and stuff ,

because i guess i'll hurt my love one =X

BUT ! Things aren't what you think it was

and i must say , i didn't lie to you okay

grrrrr

play fire - works , crackers and blah blah blah that we can't in Singapore

my ear hurts okay

Had seafood all along and it's not bad

love the resort so much

that's all (:

After so much

i thought i was right , but i was wrong ( i guess )

i thought everythingd had an end to it

but i'm starting to feel being love

i didn't know why ,

how should i say ?

i'm so confuse now

i suppose it's my turn to have mixed feelings already

ahahaha

so , tell me ,

what exactly gonna happen and what you actually want me to do ?

BUT , still the one i love now :DDDD

Okay , everything settled down already ,

i supposed ?

we're going to be like friends only alright (:

all the cryings and stuff ,

nomore okay !

lols

he wants everything ,

go ahead

i can no longer hold on to him anymore

if the 2 years of rel is so easy for him to let go ,

i suppose he's not the one for me

and i still can get someone else better ,

i hope ?

lols.

he wants to earn money , he wants to do anything ,

it doesn't bother me anymore

course i know , no matter how much love i've invested ,

how much care i invested ,

nothing seems to happen and

gradually , i became so tire ,

and give up

perhaps invest on something thats worth it right ?

ahahaha

i'm tire of explaining , i'm tire of everything

i've asked for starting afresh but yet rejected ,

so why not ,

i can do this alone .

no matter what's going to be like in future ,

i'm not going to care

because i know , as long as i'm having great life ,

it's worth everything

though being friends is hard now ,

but , i know i can

because i didn't keep the past in me anymore

and i can carry on without any burden thats holds me back

so , from today onwards , i'm a change person ,

i've became much stronger and a less attitude person

i know i've change from a better.

ehhehe

thanks him for making me realise , what's me and changed me

thanks boy

i'm not gonna ilu anymore , i guess

cause i realise ,

you're just taking it for granted

:DDDDDD

I've already realised my mistakes ,

but you still don't

i just want to clear thoughts with you

yeah , and everything will be clean

perhaps , what's in you , you wouldn't listen

course you only think that you're right

up to you

still my lovelyfriend afterall (:

Oh my god !

Please , firstly , Waiwai and i was caught for TALKING during FRC

What the hell is wrong when i'm feeling soso terrible and was just having my hands on my head and waiwai wasn't talking at all ?

please can

then ended up saying, hmm

actually blah blah blah and all sorts of excues for catching us

OMGH !

Whatever can

ridiculous.

grrrrrr

Feeling so sick and left school to see a doctor.

The doctor said i was having some virus or something

whatever

okay. Thanks for accompanying me to see a doctor and of course, always been there for me

really hope to loves you lots.

LOL

yupp , thats all .

have been sleeping all day long

couldn't help it

Hey everybody !

Life still goes on doesn't it ?

ahahha

i'm alright

don't worry

Special thanks for those who love and care

and also that special someone ,who has always been there for me

I hope i'm not lonely anymore

cause i have you

ahahaha

loves baby

hugsandkisses :DDDD

Counting down to my birthday !

excited !!!

ahahaha

Baby , tell me what's the next step ?

Tell me that everything is afresh

tell me that a chance is given for both of us

come , talk to me

come and accompany me

sighh ,

these will only happen when i'm asleep .

yawns

shall go and dream now

tkecare

nights

What's wrong with you ?

I don't know why ,things just get into you , like always

Yes , you may be suffering ,

but whatever it is ,

you just don't wish to face everything

you left this rel without solving anything ,

and just left a pile of shit behind

what is wrong with you ?

is freedom all you just wanted

what are you thinking then

after 2 years of rel ,

you just said ,

''i need to be alone , to be single''

then what's left for me ?

i'm willing to sacrifice everything for you ,

why can't you ?

isn't it too hard to start afresh everything again ?

you told me ,

'' Theres still some improvement in this rel , we might have a chance to be together again''

i still remember those phrase, don't you ?

you told me to carry on my life ,

how am i supposed to when everything comes so unpredictable,

i have to settle everything myself , to cool down

and i just don't believe such thing will happen to us.

i'm clearing up the mess , but you ?

just running away

you seems so happy with your life now , don't you

honestly ,it hurts me even more now.

i didn't know what's wrong with you ,

when will you grow to be more considerate and think otherwise

you're just agreeing with your own thinking ,

but you never understand what others said to you

i'm disappointed

i don't know how am i supposed to talk some sense into you ,

after saying so much things.

i didn't know how ...

Counting down 10 days to my birthday

am i gonna celebrate with you just like last year again ?

NO ! i want to celebrate with you , happily.

Same things always happen during this period of time

After , after after those raining days , the sun finally come out. Sometimes, i would prefer Sun than Moon because Sun always enlighten my days , giving me hope. Rain just drain me down the reservoir and i seriously hate it. As said , YU HOU TIAN QING . Hope that this rel will soon recover , i hope ? I'm just becoming so helpless and terrible . Able to understand what i'm going through ?

Liang nian de gan qing le

zhen de shuo fang qi jiu fang qi ma ?

ze shi bu ke nen de

ni nen liao jie wo suo zou de yi qie ma ?

I didn't know what is wrong within me

everyone misunderstand me

including you

isit because the way i show love and care to anyone else is in a different way ?

or isit because i really don't know what i'm thinking ?

things aren't the way it should be

i mean ,

the way i do things aren't to stop you from doing nor to hurt you

but why ?

everyone is misunderstand it ?

whywhywhy ?

i'm down and upset , really

what can i do next ?

it's hard to carry on life this way

how i wish my life will stop here

sigh

i thought things are turning rather good and smoothly ,

but whatever you did ,

makes me wonder

am i really that bad to anyone else ?

it simply just a question mark

i din't want anyone to leave me right now

i need the courage to be the used-to-be me

but how ?

noone is helpping ,but just there to complain

including you

so , how am i going to carry on ?

sigh

all i can say is,

i love everyone of you

as usual

and of cos ,

my boy

HAPPY 2ND YEAR ANNIVERSARY

it didn't turn out well ,

but could there be a new fresh start ?

you aren't trying it anyway

all i can say is , blame me

i love you from the bottom of my heart

and it's like , always i do

Alright ,will be going overseas with boy and his relatives ,families , my parents and my aunt.

i don't wish to step out from this

i really don't wish to

My handphone is spoilt

i supposed noone can contact me now

but it's alright ,

sigh ~

More photos (:

Fuck for all i care
i dont need your comments
and look into the mirror before commenting
i would greatly appreciate


anddd.....


fuck your bloody sucker attitude
don't treat me anyhow
you know what im talking about
sucker
and who knows ,
you're the one losing out
asshole
grrrrr