Should i be happy or sad ?

At the beginning of the year ,

i set an aim of 10 points for my Olevel

and i'm mugging so hard , knowing that i've nothing to

worry about cause everything seems so smoothly.

But , there isn't always a never ending smoothing road.

And here i am , dropping out of my aim , just to overcome every single thing.

NO ! I'm not stupid , and i don't even want things to happen this way

either. Things are just out of my control. Put yourself in me then. Easy to be said than done , i guess. What i'm doing now , is just something that can really makes me happy . You got to know , i'm not like you. You can forget every single wee bit of thing , but not me. When i'm on the stage , i don't show how terrible i am , but just to act that everything is just so fine , so enjoying. But behind it , you'll never be able to feel the pain , the everything. How much effort i've put in to forget everything , but still failed. Because i remembered , i once wrote your name and mine , on a big rock.... Thanks for your care and concern though ..

If you want me to love you ,

I will.

Because you aren't erased away ,

but , a scar that was left behind ...

But i guess , your heart had already flew away...